Since the passing away of Robin
Williams, many have begun discussing and opening up about mental
illnesses such as depression, anxiety. Though Williams death is of
course devastating, I believe the conversations taking place will be
beneficial for many.
I have personally struggled with
seasons of depression and anxiety for around 5 years. I have suffered
from panic attacks, insomnia, racing thoughts, despair, and most of
the other symptoms that accompany these maladies. Thankfully, the
Lord has delivered me and has sanctified me through each of these
seasons. I have not had a panic attack in around 4 years, but, I do
still occasionally suffer seasons on anxiousness, insomnia, and
depression. Personally, I do not take medication of these maladies.
Though I do not personally take medication, I am not against taking
medication, but I have found that for me personally, the cure
is and has always been a Christ-centered cure.
In my personal struggles with
depression and anxiety, I have found that God has not left us
weaponless. He has given us means of grace - weapons to do battle
with. It is my intention in this article to expound on these things
and what I have personally learned about each of them. It is my
prayer that those that read this are able to take what I have
learned, and apply it to their own lives. I've found, at least in my
own experiences, that depression and anxiety generally accompany one
another like two sides to the same coin. In light of this, each thing
that I expound upon in this article is directed towards anxiety and
depression together.
Some of the things I recommend in this
article will seem like common sense to many. These things are
elementary aspects of the faith. This is true. However, I have found
(particularly in my own life) that it is typically these things that
are most neglected. I have also learned that though they may be
elementary staples of the faith, neglecting these things can lead to
some serious side effects that are not pleasant.
Fighting For The Faith
I
know some will argue that “you can't battle with anxiety and
depression”. However, in my own life, I have not found this to be
true. As Christians living in a fallen world, we are called to fight
for joy. I do not believe that the Lord has failed to equip us in
dealing with these kind of maladies. As John Piper has said in his
book Desiring God, “The
preservation of our joy in God takes work. It is a fight. Our
adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, and he has an
insatiable appetite to destroy one thing: the joy of faith. But the
Holy Spirit has given us a sword called the Word of God for the
defense of our joy“
1.
Here are some of the tools that God has used mightily in my own life
in battling depression and anxiety.
- Reading and Meditating – In Scripture, we see that meditating upon the Scriptures is essential to our joy and peace, and that there is a direct correlation (Psalms 1:2; 19:14; 49:3; 104:34; 119:15). The reading of the Scriptures is a means of grace. God bestows grace through the reading and meditation of His Word. If we neglect reading and meditating, our faith will suffer as a consequence. When our faith is weak, anxiety and depression can and generally will creep in. Reading and mediating on the Scriptures is essential to our spiritual health. One of my favorite illustrations – would you expect a power lifter who skipped meals and neglected his health and training on a regular basis to do well in a lifting meet? Hardly. It's the same with our spiritual health. If you do not nourish ourselves with the Word, we cannot expect to feel well spiritually. Memorizing Scripture is essential as well.
- Prayer – Along with the Word and Sacraments, prayer is also a means of grace 2. According to the Westminster Catechism's, through prayer “Christ communicates to his church the benefits of his mediation” and “the benefits of redemption” 3. For me personally, prayer has been a neglected aspect of my spiritual life. Many times I have went through the entire day and prayed only once at the end of the day – before bed. If we neglect prayer in this way, then we miss the benefits of mediation and redemption that Christ communicates.
- Repentance – This is a much neglected weapon. I have found for me personally that anxiety and depression typically comes into my life when there is a lack of repentance. As Pastor Scott Sauls has recently said in an article about anxiety and depression:“Usually anxiety and depression have come on me because I’ve lost my way temporarily—leaving the easy yoke of Jesus and looking to ministry for self-validation, to make a name for myself, to gain applause and acclaim and respect from the crowds” 4. Speaking personally, I cannot agree more with this sentiment. If we allow our remnants of corruption to guide our walks as Christians, we can expect to feel uneasy. I know in my own life, God has used anxiety and depression as a means of drawing me back to himself. This has changed my perspective on these maladies. Instead of looking at them as bothersome (though they often are), I tend to look at them as a means for drawing me closer to my savior – Jesus Christ.
- Trusting In Future Grace – John Piper's book Future Grace has changed my life in this aspect. Essentially, anxiety can be defined as uneasiness or nervousness about the future. In his book, Piper says “the only life I have left to live is future life. The past is not in my hands to offer or alter. It is gone. Not even God will change the past. All the expectations of God are future expectations. All the possibilities of faith and love are future possibilities. And all the power that touches me with help to live in love is future power. As precious as the bygone blessings of God may be, if He leaves me only with the memory of those, and not with the promise of more, I will be undone. My hope for future goodness and future glory is future grace” 5. To an anxious person, Piper's words could send shivers down the spin, but what we must realize that God is sovereign. Nothing happens in the world apart from Him. He has already written the end from the beginning. If we are in His Son – Jesus Christ, He has promised to us His grace. To not trust in God's future grace is blatant unbelief. This is the root problem with anxiety, in particular. We must always be reminded that He has given to us grace for our past, present, and He promises that He has given us grace for the future, and it is sufficient (2 Cor. 12). He has lavished upon us grace upon grace (John 1:16).
- Preaching To Yourself – We need to hear the Gospel everyday. We need to be reminded, because we are prone to forget. Joe Thorn in his great little book Note To Self notes that we need to not only preach the Gospel to ourselves, but we need to preach the Law to ourselves as well. Preaching the Law to ourselves shows us what God expects of us, how we've come short, and what's needed. When we preach the law to ourselves, our own sinfulness is exposed. This drives us to Christ for our righteousness. Following up with the Gospel reminds us of what God expected was fully met in the death, burial, and resurrection of Jesus Christ, and because of His atoning work, we are fully justified by the Father 6. As Christians, we know this, but many times it sadly becomes a mantra rather than a life-changing truth. This is why preaching Law and Gospel to ourselves is so important. We need a constant reminder of this life-changing truth.
When
we look back to the Scriptures and throughout church history, we see
depression and anxiety both present in the life of many. We see it in
the lives of David, Elijah, Gideon, the Apostles, Martin Luther, John
Calvin, Charles Spurgeon, and many more. Moreover, there are no quick
fixes for anxiety or depression. Those who have suffered from these
things can attest to this. However, there is a cure - the Gospel. Drawing near, and obeying the Gospel frees us from not only our past, but our fear of the future. It allows us to come boldly to the throne of God, and to rejoice in the work of Jesus Christ. If you are struggling with anxiety and or depression, take inventory of your life. What you are experiencing could undoubtedly be brought on for various reasons such as chemical imbalances, heredity, etc., but it could also be brought on because of a lack of walking in the obedience that God has called you to walk. I hope this article could bless you.
Recommended Reading:
The Holy Bible
Westminster Confession
of Faith
1689 Second London
Baptist Confession of Faith
Westminster Larger
Catechism
Westminster Smaller
Catechism
The Doctrine of
Repentance by Thomas Watson
The Mortification of
Sin by John Owen
Future Grace by
John Piper
When The Darkness Won't
Life by John Piper
Spiritual Depression:
Its Causes and Cures by D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones
Note To Self by Joe
Thorn
Bibliography:
1 Desiring
God by John Piper
2 http://www.shortercatechism.com/resources/beattie/wsc_be_098-107.html
3 This
can be found in the Westminster Larger and Smaller Catechisms.
Larger Catechism – Question and Answer 154. Smaller Catechism –
Question and Answer 88.
4 http://thegospelcoalition.org/article/anxiety-and-depression-my-strange-friends
5 Future
Grace by John Piper
6 Note
To Self by Joe Thorn






